I can see the light at the end of the tunnel #MummyMondays

As part of Post Natal Depression Awareness week, I had to share a little bit more about where I’m at in my PND journey, I’m nearly there!

I’ve been walking with a bit of a kick in my step this week and I’m really proud of myself. Over the past almost two years, I felt like I’d never get to this point. Post Natal Depression has been the toughest thing I’ve ever had to conquer in my life and I think I’ve almost reached the light at the end of the tunnel.

Why am I proud of myself? Well, firstly because I was the one that made myself go to the doctor and I’m proud of myself because I saw another doctor for a second opinion, and although I was diagnosed late, I’m glad I went because this was the first step. I’m proud of myself because I’ve worked hard with my psychologist, I went in with an open mind and with no expectation that she would miraculously make me better but with the understanding that I needed to practice the cognitive therapies she gave me and really put in the effort after each session. I’m proud of myself because I’ve pulled myself out of a deep and dark hole, somewhere I never want to go again. I’m proud of myself because I can now deal with stressful situations with a sense of calm instead of  panic, stress or frustration. I’m proud of myself because with all that I have achieved, I can now give 100% to the most important people in my life, My Husband and My Son.

I feel as though I’ve been released from a horrible prison, a place where I couldn’t see forward to a normal and happy life, a place where I couldn’t ever imagine mothering another child again, a place where I felt wracked with guilt and the sense of being an incompetent mother. I now feel free, like I could run through a huge open field and scream out loud with glee. I get excited about the thought of having another baby now, I feel the emotions I went through when I was last pregnant. To feel this way again is bliss, it’s a feeling I thought was gone forever.

And finally, I’m proud of myself for actually letting myself feel proud. For too long I’ve criticised, doubted and questioned myself and it’s about damn time I felt good.

To my readers, if you don’t feel right after having your baby, don’t do what I did and think that it must be a normal part of motherhood, it isn’t. Please go and see your GP. If you don’t think your doctor was helpful, seek a 2nd opinion. Elliott was 19 months old when I was diagnosed.  My first doctor was quite unhelpful which made me feel stupid for bringing it up in the first place, I felt like I mustn’t have really had a problem, so I left it. It wasn’t until things started to get worse that I saw another doctor who was wonderful. Unfortunately I feel like a big chunk of Elliott’s life is a blur to me because I didn’t deal with my PND sooner, so please seek help and support sooner rather than later.

The two websites below are a great resource for information on PND. I would highly recommend looking at them if you’re a bit unsure about how you’re feeling, if you need guidance or if your loved one has PND it’s a good place to learn about the illness, but remember, it’s okay for you to not completely understand…providing support is the main thing.

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Eva Lewis (The Multitasking Woman)

Eva Lewis (The Multitasking Woman)

Eva is the Editor and Owner of The Multitasking Woman. She always has her fingers in many different pies but wouldn't have it any other way. Eva is a freelance writer, a social media manager, a Mum to her six-year-old son, one-year-old daughter, six chickens and Benny the dog and wife to Mr G. They all live happily in their little worker's cottage in Ipswich, Queensland, Australia.
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  1. November 17, 2013 / 9:16 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story Eva, I’m so happy you are now seeing the ‘light’ xx

  2. November 18, 2013 / 3:25 am

    Thank you for opening up and sharing, Eva. Good for you for getting help, and for allowing yourself to be proud of your progress and success! Blessings! x

  3. November 18, 2013 / 5:35 am

    It’s great that you are sharing this out in the open. I too went through some form of the blues after I had baby #2. I managed to get back to feeling normal again eventually, but I realised that the postpartum period is an extremely vulnerable time for all mums. We need all the support we can get… even if we feel like we don’t need it, it probably means we need it all the more. I’m linking up with an old post about my experience with the baby blues to connect along with you at some level on this. Glad you’re getting through this, Eva!

  4. November 18, 2013 / 1:00 pm

    Just discovered your blog and link up party. I’d love you to share this post at the Sunday Parenting Party, its so important to talk about PND and your post is such a positive one.

  5. November 18, 2013 / 5:49 pm

    Thank you for sharing your personal story! It’s so easy for new Moms to feel guilty and incompetent, and not even know that they might be suffering from treatable depression. Congratulations on taking action and hope you will continue to heal.