Today I’m writing this blog post as part of the ‘I Must Confess’ challenge run by Kirsty at My Home Truths. The prompt for today is ‘If Only I Knew’ and I’ve got plenty ‘if onlys’.
If I only knew that focusing on getting back to work straight away instead of appreciating time with my baby would make me want to have my time all over again and question my decision.
If I only knew I was to have three miscarriages, I would have tried to be healthier and less stressed.
If I only knew that not recording milestones for Elliott would mean I would lose memory of his first words and other important milestones.
If I only knew that Elliott was unhappy at his old childcare, I would have moved him sooner.
And I could keep going, but for me, that’s enough.
Do you know what? Thinking ‘if I only knew’ in my opinion is not healthy. Looking back on life in hindsight to me is counterintuitive unless you plan to do something to improve on it.
When I look back at my ‘if onlys’ I think about it this way…
I had PND but it’s made me stronger, it’s helped me to look at life differently and more positively.
I did go back to work earlier than I should have, but it’s helped me discover something I love, something I’m good at and has allowed me to start a brand new career.
I had three miscarriages, but they made me value life and my family so much more.
I didn’t record milestones for Elliott but ever since I’ve made sure I’ve made the most of every moment.
I missed the signs of Elliott disliking his previous childcare centre, but I did finally realise and the change was the best thing we ever did, he is thriving.
It’s fine to think ‘if I only knew’ but we shouldn’t be so hard on ourselves. Most of the time when we make decisions, it’s based on our emotions and knowledge at the time. And sometimes when things happen to us, it’s completely out of our control.
This is life, this is how we learn and as we continue to make decisions and live our lives, we learn from our experiences of the past.
So next time you think ‘if only I knew’, why not try considering why you’re glad you didn’t know.
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