I had been thinking about getting a tattoo for so long. I knew exactly what I wanted in a meaning, just not what I wanted the tattoo to be.
I thought about all the things that represented who I am, my personality, my journey and then I decided on getting two tattoos with an interconnecting meaning.
This is the first tattoo which I got last Saturday on my right wrist.
Over the almost three years since Elliott was born, I have faced some of the toughest challenges of my life.
I’ve conquered post natal depression that was diagnosed very late, I’ve had promises broken by an employer when I was due to return to work and we were running out of money. I started a business which I had to close due to my PND and I’ve endured the emotional pain of two miscarriages. But over those three years I have discovered more of myself than I had in the preceding 29 years. I’ve discovered my determination, I’ve discovered confidence I never knew I had and I’ve discovered my love of writing (and that fact that I actually can write). And the best discovery, the strongest love I’ve ever felt in my entire life, a love for my son which I was worried I didn’t have in the early stages of motherhood because I was clouded by post natal depression.
The mandala tattoo is a lotus flower, a flower that grows up through muddy waters to become a beautiful bloom. That is my journey.
I know people have their opinions about tattoos and that’s fair enough. I know people close to me that don’t like it, and that’s fine because I got my tattoo for my own reasons and no one elses.
My tattoos are an expression, something for me to appreciate, a reminder of who I am and how far I’ve come. My tattoos won’t change who I am, how I treat people or how I should be treated. They won’t change my ability to write or do the things I’m good at. I’m still the same Eva, a loving mother and wife.
I never thought getting a tattoo could be such an enriching experience, I feel like I’ve delved into a new chapter of my life and it’s a great one.
Do you have a tattoo/s? What are they and what are the meanings behind them?
Today I’m linking up with Essentially Jess for IBOT